Learning How to Blend.
Yesterday I had an AMAZING channeling session with the beautiful soul, Jessica Stone. I haven’t treated myself to a channeling in a while because I work in my Akashic Records myself, but I was getting ping after ping that I needed someone to hold the space for me and my Guides to communicate. And wow, was Jess truly the blessing I was looking for. I told her all of that right when we sat down and she was like listen, it’s like how a hairdresser can cut their own hair, but sometimes you just need another professional to do it for you :)
After that exchange she got right to it and the first thing that came out of her mouth was that my Guides were communicating that I was living two experiences and keeping them separate. One being my intimate experience with my soul and my spirituality and the other being my experience with being a human. She was drawing two circles in the air, one for my connection with my spirit and soul and the other circle for my connection with my human experience. It was like my Guides have been waiting for me to go to Jess so they can knock me on the head with this message!
My Guides mentioned how to really step into my soul's purpose and feel a sense of wholeness I needed to blend these two parts of my existence.
My entire drive back to LA from Newport I chewed at this message. I wasn’t going down the guilt train of “how did I not realize this!?” because I did notice it, but I have been ignoring it and honestly afraid of blending the two together. My connection to spirit - Reiki, Akashic Records, crystal healing, Breathwork, meditation, sound baths, bath rituals, healing, etc - has been a huge HUGE huge important part of my life, but for years now I have only shared it with people in those circles. It is and has been such a sacred part of my life and my healing journey that I haven’t been emotionally strong enough to be told from people it’s “woo- woo” or “weird” or “so crazy.” So it’s literally like I have sectioned that part off to “Woke People Only” (whatever that means).
Then I have my very human experience. I laughed out loud when my Guides brought up my human experience to Jess because she was like “wow, you LOVE being a human and doing human things.” Which for those of you who know me, is so so so true. I love living BIG, a joke with some of my best friend is a quote I said one night “I want it all!” Because I truly do, I truly want to fall in love with it all. I love fashion, I love beautiful interior design, I love traveling, I love nice restaurants, I love nice hotels, I love a fancy margarita, I love dancing at a St Tropez nightclub, I love love love it all.
When I really started my healing journey and reconnecting with my soul essence, I started feeling this sense of guilt that I couldn’t be this divinely connected spiritual person who had all these healing techniques to offer people and still love to buy expensive clothes, dance at night clubs, and travel to amazing places. So much so, that when I was in my circle of healers and spiritually open people I felt like I had to hide this side of me that loved the very tangible lavish things of life and quickly mute that side of me down.
With all that being said and true, I have been hopping from circle to circle these past couple of years. Why? Shame and guilt. Feeling ashamed of my spiritual life and feeling guilty for my love of human experiences. When I heard the words “You need to blend them together. Stop dimming your light for each person you are with to make them feel comfortable.” I felt like a mentor/coach/parent grabbed me by my shoulders and screamed “JUST BE YOU.” And how do I do that? Live from my heart space:) Truthfully when you live from your heart and do everything from there, you can truly live in harmony with everything else. Energetically speaking the heart chakra is the space that combines the lower 3 chakras (earthly realms / the physical experience) and the 3 upper chakras (heavenly realms, spiritual experience). Connecting them like a sacred union.
For anyone who is reading this…I hope this can be a gentle reminder to be you so ruthlessly and authentically you by living truthfully from your heart. Don’t dim your light to make people feel comfortable. Always tune into your heart. Take off all your masks and let your friends, your family, the world see YOU. I’m still learning myself, but sometimes a nice shake of shoulders is needed:)
“In a world where you can be anything…Be Yourself”